Your not alone.
Some days it feels impossible.
You think you have a hold on the grief. You refocus your thoughts. You have stocked responses for every situation. You push the feelings down to keep on with your day, to keep it together.
And then you are knocked off your feet by a smell....
a fleeting thought...
And in an instant it feels just as hard as the day they died. It all just feels impossible again.
You are not alone.
You will have days and moments like this for the rest of your life and that is ok. The grief is a part of you now, but it is not all of you.
Let it out. Be as mad or sad as you need to be. Yell at God if that is what you need to do. He can take it.
Find a safe way to release all the hurt out so it quits following you around every moment. Ask God the big questions. Talk to others who have walked down this path. Journal for yourself. Listen to music. Refocus your thoughts on gratitude. Pray for grace and understanding. FIGHT for your peace.
Despite all that has happened, God is still showing you the way. He has not abandoned you. Talk to Him. Look for the God Things He is placing in your life. God granted his ultimate promise of Heaven to your loved ones and ours. Don’t let the devil steal your peace.
Live in spite of the grief. Live your life with Faith Over Fear.
This Faith Over Fear design was created by Angie about a month or so before she passed away.
During a conversation with our mom one day she took out a pink post it and scratched out this design intending to get it as a tattoo.
When she asked her oncologist, he agreed she could get the tattoo as soon as her numbers improved after chemo that month. He encouraged her to do whatever she wanted to do, to go out and live life.
Unfortunately Ang never got the chance to get the tattoo she wanted. A few weeks later she entered hospice care for her final days.
Within the first couple days after her death, close to a dozen family and friends got this design or a variation of it tattooed in her honor. We knew that in order to keep moving without her, we too needed to hold onto the message of Faith Over Fear she clung to.
As we wrote and published our book, Faith Over Fear: Walking Angie Home we realized that this design, scratched out on a post it was so much more. It was a visual reminder of Angie’s message to the world. It was in Angie’s own handwriting reminding us to choose Faith Over Fear.
Today you see this design on everything from necklaces, to apparel, to vehicle decals and signs. It is a reminder to you to be bold in your faith, to deliberately choose joy, and to fight for your peace. Our Faith Over Fear Gear is another way to share Angie’s story with the world.
Hi! I'm Jessy, one of the co-owners of Purpose + Grit and co-authors of the book Faith Over Fear: Walking Angie Home. I share my life with my husband Kyle, our three kids, Ally, Charley and Rad and our German Shephard, Roxy. You will usually find me with coffee in my cup and paint on my clothes, tackling one of my many projects 15 minutes at at time.